Up on a Hill across the Blue lake

 This shall be the randomest post ever on two really random periods of my life

 Exco dinner after promos when I completed my last lit paper. Was so happy then

 Trip to Genting with the couz and we had so much 'us' time, it was good too.
Note how I didn't use to have braces and I didn't use to look weird sigh. So self conscious now whenever I'm smiling for photos :'(

Anywayz today was a rather.... hard day. Keep hitting me how I was no longer in 12S501. I know I sound like a weenie and I should stop complaining haha dayum I freaking wish I could. I even teared up in Econs lecture like wtf get some spunk Zoee you spineless jellyfish psh

How we'd survive

Out with TCG a fortnight ago! Haha we were quite lame and kinda failed in our first attempt of making a cover but at least we had fun! Hopefully the future outings would be more successful and hopefully my mic arrives soon and I wasn't ripped off.

School hasn't been bad. I actually imagined it worse but thank god for Alif and a few others whom I can actually click with. It would have been easier but at least half of the class is from China and I am absolutely hopeless with Chinese. Meh.
At times it gets difficult. Actually start missing my classmates and the OGLs and everyone else it hurts so bad :( Not to the extent of me breaking down again, no, but it still really sucks. Why do I feel like I'm running out of time? It's like every moment spent with Kristle or Cheryl or the OGLs feels so......... precious because I
m not going to be able to see them again? I have no idea haha sigh. Hope everything gets better!

And I get to see you around once a day and I know I should be content with that I really do but........... it's never enough

A thousand times

Wazzap
Oh my lord I look so different I still can't get used to it hehe different good different bad I don't exactly know either

So..............
Today was the first day of the Orientation and it was so horrid I had such a bad start to the day I broke down in front of my OGLs sigh. I don't know why but it feels too easy to just cry now :( But all is good I have to believe that

Since its the first day of Orientation, this also means I had to submit my subj combi choices today. And even though I've been thinking about this for a month now and it also being the reason for all my sleepless nights, I still couldn't decide. But when I finally did, it turns out MJ doesn't offer retainees all the choices they want. So basically I went fuck fuck fucketty fuck and panicked like mad.

I'm so tired I don't even wanna think about whether I made the right choice or not.

Acid pink lemonade

helloooo
So I just got back from GOAP trials at ECP with the OGLs and I am, in a word, shagged. And if spending an entire day walking up and down the beach in the sun singing along to old time classics wasn't exhausting enough, we went shopping afterwards haha not that I'm even complaining duh.

Anyways I have a new hairdo, braces and extremely red face argh sunburnt haha. I kinda like my hair this way when its down, but when its in a ponytail, it looks absolutely shit ugh.

Guys I have big dreams but I'm scared. h e l p

ooh and I finally finished learning IKYWT on the guitar haha yay

Bits and pieces

It's difficult every single time someone asks me what I actually wanna do in the future and I immediately reply PR/HR............ I don't know I guess its kinda like my fall back plan if my ultimate super dream career doesn't work out hahahaha omg listen to me I sound like a child.

Every single day I'm overcoming the small parts and obstacles. It's so difficult but I have to make it work. If only I could instill a little bit of Effy into me haha wow nothing will ever stop me then. The small things, the bits and pieces, are still okay but its the great big hunks that worry me...................... Too many choices right now too many decisions to be made. Someone send help? Ah wellz in the meantime I shall immerse myself into the beautiful deep dark complicated world of Skins. Adios mis amigos~

Just talking to you made me realize what could have been and it made me so sad

Liberate your sons and daughters

Hiiiii guuuyyyysss

So I came home from the movies and found a mini family gathering at home. Turns out my aunt's marriage is on the rocks and the ladies of the family are trying to........ gatherevidence/backherup/brightenthings I don't know. But it totally reminds me of 7 years ago when the same thing happened and I was being ushered into my room and everyone told me not to worry blah blah yeah. My poor little couz's facing what I'm facing now and he's barely 7. Seriously adults really do fuck things up sometimes. Although I can't really say the whole thing has ever affected me haha. I just grew tougher hehe. And basically learnt that you can only ever trust yourself and guys just never ever ever let your life revolve around one person because no one every stays and you don't want your world crumbling down over something as tiny as him/her now do youuuu.

On a lighter note, Wreck It Ralph was totes adorable and SKYLAR ASTIN VOICED ROY omg hahaha major freakout when I realized it hehe. Oooh and I put up 2 new posters today haha more days of talking to the wall nah I'm kidding okay byeeee guuuyyyyssss

xx

SAY HELLO TO A FRESH START

Time to leave all t he negativities of 2012 behind and start 2013 afresh! No matter what, this year I'm gonna make it work. I know what I want and with that, 2013 is gonna rock! Let's go guys whoooo