I TRIED TO BLOG. I TRIED I SERIOUSLY DID I SPENT LIKE AN HOUR WORKING ON MY PHOTOS AND WHEN I WAS FINALLY DONE FROM WHITTLING 500 PHOTOS DOWN TO 50, BLOGGER REFUSES TO LET ME UPLOAD THEM OMG LIKE THERE'S A QUOTA?!?! SINCE W H E N OKAY I CAN'T EVEN LIKE OMG GOODBYE

haha and I don't even know why I'm making such a big deal out of this but it is highly upsetting when you've been meaning to do a proper picture post for ages and when you actually do, you c a n t. Highly upsetting I tell you!!!!!!!!!

and and I realize when I'm mad, my vocab becomes super limited i.e omg like super can't even hahahahaa okay bye

Cascading down

What I'm feeling right now.......... I feel free? Like maybe I've finally decided to stop waiting. And I feel that if I can get over this, I can get over anything. Tomorrow's going to be the first day and this marks the start of my life as a retainee hahaha. Hopefully, I'll be strong enough to get through it
 Still wishing you were here and that this wasn't so hard.

Like a fairy on acid

Got this off Tumblr and since my ask box doesn't even work, I shall do it here hahaha. There are some pretty obvious ones I'm not gonna bother with though hehe

1. Three Turn Offs
This is really difficult I can't think of any right now hahaha okay when people don't use proper english, insensitivity and............. Crocs. I really really hate them shoes. If you even call those shoes

2. Three Turn Ons
British accents pretty eyes and prepsters

3. Phobia
Failure

4. Celebrity Crush 
Hahahahahahahaha oh please

5. Drink 

10. Embarrassing Memory 
Oh god hahaha that one time during the TMC rally period....................... undo undo undo

11. Last Thing Ate
Salad!

12. Last Text Received 
"Haha I suggest to the ventures" -Jefferson hahaha can't wait!

13. 4 Things I Hate
Walking behind a smoker/slowperson, waiting for texts, disappointment aaaand gaining  >:( 

14. 4 Things I Love
Starbucks/Coffee/Tea, perfect playlists, comfortable hoodies and.......the beach :)

15. Random Fact 
Currently obsessed with my pink yo-yo hehe it lights up whooooosh

16. Three People I Miss
wow......... okay uhm my bimz, D and the person you used to be

17. Tattoo I Want
infinity infinity infinity infinity infinity 

18. A Regret
Not giving my best

19. Wish at 11:11
But if I say it, it won't come true :( 

20. Craziest Thing Done
h ah ah ah aha no. Nothing's gonna get that out from me!!!!!!!!

Haha whew okay that was fun guys I suggest you do it if y'all wanna get your mind off stuffs cuz it kept mine off things for a good 20 minutes hehe. In fact I tag all my fellow Tumblr users and bloggers to do this too haha if you even made it this far down my post. 

I hate being sad

I've always liked long bus rides home because they give me time to be alone with my thoughts and just think but long usually meant an hour? This time coming back home I was on a 6hour ride and I think I drowned in my thoughts I'm not even kidding haha I just stared out of the window and pondered. To make things all the more dramatic, it started raining and I was listening to TMH so......... yeah. I really hate over thinking but I couldn't help it. All the What Ifs and If Onlys started coming in and I felt.......... swamped. And exhausted.

I wanna be super happy again :(

Why did you have to make me regret ever meeting you

This is so fucked up. People should just stop deceiving and telling lies

Coke & Ciggers

Oh yeah I have naturally brown hair hehehe. Thinking of dip-dying it red tho haha my love for Phobos knows no bounds.
So...... my first dental appointment is in less than a week. Fucking scared will be an understatement I swear I hope everything turns out fine :( 

Meanwhile, I have other things to worry about, everyday that I spend in school, in my class feels all the more precious now. I love my classmates my PW group my exco so so so so so so sooooooo much I hope no one forgets me.
Oh maaaan I have no idea why I'm feeling so........feelingless about this. Its a good thing I guess haha I like not feeling anything. 

Excites for tomorrow, intend to spend the entire day with my PW beechaz and exco. 

Things will turn out fine right? I wanna count on you to reassure me but is it wrong?