waiting game

so lets take a while to appreciate how (insert word of choice) I used to look like HAHAHA
this was 2011???? god I was 16 and i look like a kid was I tryna pull a Holly G haha I probably was (loser)

schoooooool is coming to an end and I'm so fucking glad. 2 more months to As and the pressure is definitely heightening.............. but oh well I'm doing what I can hopefully that's enough. No one ever told me the largest battle I would face when prepping for As would be myself unwanted thoughts come all too often and panic attacks are a regular norm now haha ok well at least not this week I'm finally managing the matter over mind process.

well........................till then
x,
Z

square into a circle

I've always known myself to be quite a bit of a skeptic about most things. Recently I've come to realise how that might hinder my growth as a teenager/YA here in Singapore.

But then again being jaded and cynical leaves you less vulnerable and more ready to deal. Less idealistic and less naive. So shouldn't that help you grow as a person? So confused I literally just lay in bed doing so many personality tests and I'm extroverted melancholic neutral emotion based perceptive yada yada and all that other jazz. All these terms they don't define me do they? 

Am I wiser or just plain old delusional hahahahahaha wish I knew what kind of a person I was

x,

Z 

ps I've been blogging more and playing more and recording more these are my emotional outlets I'm /so/ glad I can indulge in them